Russian Roulette
This is one of my poems from the darkest point in my life before i got control of myself. Don't worry about me nowadays i have too many good things going for me. Its all starting to turn around. I just feel like i need to get this poem off my chest to finnaly abandon all my regret about this point in my life. without this point in my life i wouldnt be who i am i would probably have ended up being less of a success had i continued following that path anyways. Just to let you all know ive redone this poem so its better than it was when i first wrote it and here it is... Russian Roulette.
I load the bullet..
A single cartridge..
So small..
Seemingly weak..
Yet its power enough to take down a giant..
Breaking bone and tearing flesh..
I close my eyes and spin the cylinder..
The barrel to my temple..
My finger on the trigger..
The last thing i hear..
Click..
Click..
Boom..
Again this is the most disturbing and dark you will ever see from me again. I found the courage to seek help at this point in my life and i will have the courage to seek it again should i ever become this self loathing again. I refuse to go back into that pit. I finnaly got the hell out of there i still have a "fuck the world, and fuck you too" attitude at times but i will never ever go out that way. If you have any concerns for me dont worry ive been reborn.
I load the bullet..
A single cartridge..
So small..
Seemingly weak..
Yet its power enough to take down a giant..
Breaking bone and tearing flesh..
I close my eyes and spin the cylinder..
The barrel to my temple..
My finger on the trigger..
The last thing i hear..
Click..
Click..
Boom..
Again this is the most disturbing and dark you will ever see from me again. I found the courage to seek help at this point in my life and i will have the courage to seek it again should i ever become this self loathing again. I refuse to go back into that pit. I finnaly got the hell out of there i still have a "fuck the world, and fuck you too" attitude at times but i will never ever go out that way. If you have any concerns for me dont worry ive been reborn.
posted by Orso Dorato at 1:40:00 AM
4 Comments:
Before you express your concern as i know some of you will let me remind you this poem is three years old and this point in my life has long since passed
This is sad and, frankly, terrifying.
I hope that you don't ever end up in this place again.
But I applaud your courage for daring to express yourself and to share it with others. That is an admirable quality.
good for you, dark angel.
we do have our pits some point in our life. Sometimes we fell in and never get out.
i'm glad you got out, dude. channel your energy into your writing. take care of yourself.
:)
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